My beloved sister Jeanna is having a baby. I cannot contain my excitement (even though I thought we were going to do this together, but I digress...). Jeanna and her husband, Josh, have been married 6 years as of July 15th, and they felt as of they were ready now for their first child. Jeanna is probably the most together person I know, and if she feels that this is the time to bring a child into this world, I know it is only through careful consideration and extensive meditation that she came to this decision. And being the selfish soul I am, this process has caused me to enter into reflection (because it all relates to me, damn it).
Patrick and I have been very blessed so far in our first year of marriage. We have good health, a wonderful home, and a relationship that surprises me everyday with its strength. But in our lives there is much room for improvement before we can consider taking that next step to making our family more complete. I know that my particular area of personal growth must come in being more organized. I like to think that all the things I have on my plate allow me to be scatter-brained to a degree. Between my work, my desire to become a better equine dentist (and hopefully becoming a fellow of the American College of Veterinary Dentistry), my work with my own animals (I worry I've neglected Bishop), my crafts and the updating of my house and keeping ahead of my housework, all while trying to be a good wife and meet my husband's needs, leaves me feeling overwhelmed sometimes. But this is the life I've chosen, but at this point if I fail at anyone of these portions of my life, I've only let myself down, or at most Patrick (who is incredibly forgiving of any shortfalls). But to add a child to the mix, that is a whole other person to be responsible for.
So, in short, am I ready for a child the way my younger sister is? No, but I'm close. So down with my scatter-brained days, I hope you get fewer and far between.
In other news, KNITTING! This is a set of pants for baby Leeland.
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